I am craving a lovely, simple, ordinary week this week. Jacob had a nasty little cold last week which followed hard on the heels of a nasty little tummy bug. It meant sleepless nights all round and more than our fair share of unpleasant nappies! I also succumbed to his cold and found it very hard to get better on practically no sleep but thankfully my mum and brother took Jacob out so I could get some rest. And to those amazing women who also manage to get up and go out to work? I have absolutely no idea how you do it. No idea at all. You are superwomen!
So let’s catch up, shall we? I’ll try to summarise everything that’s swimming around in my head at the moment. I am aware that I am over a week behind on posting my final Bake Off attempt so I’ll post that on Wednesday! Don’t worry, the bake was never going to win any prizes, but Danny helped me with it this time so that was extra fun. I don’t know how to fill the cake-shaped hole in my life now that GBBO has ended – it is literally the only programme I love on TV. That final episode had me in tears – which I tried unsuccessfully to hide from Danny. He now thinks I’m a loser, but let’s discuss it all further on Wednesday!
In the meantime, I am watching The Apprentice this year, purely because my old friend Jenny Garbis is one of the contestants so I want to see how she gets on. I think I even recall babysitting her once – which makes me feel extremely old! But apart from Jenny’s presence, I despise the show. It’s just a lot of rudeness and egotism and terrible, terrible people skills, and it makes me want to cringe and crawl under my duvet. There is nothing, nothing, nothing I would like to be doing less that sitting in a boardroom trying to convince Alan Sugar that he wants me as a business partner.
I would much prefer to be out enjoying the pretty autumn colours at the moment, which is exactly what we have been doing when good health has permitted. The Surrey hills seem especially beautiful this year, with stunning bursts of crimson, russet and gold stretching away into the distance. I love showing Jacob his first ever autumn. It makes me feel like Mufasa saying “Look Simba, everything the light touches is our kingdom”. Haha. We also took him to see the sea for the first time when Danny had some holiday and he could not stop beaming with joy. He has started doing this absolutely ear splitting smile lately which melts me into a puddle. And his hair growth is increasing (which you really can’t tell in these photos but it is!) so he may not be my little baldini by Christmas.
And now for a moment of super honesty. In amongst everything else, I’ve also been thinking a lot about blogging and whether I should continue keeping this little blog of mine. As Jacob has got bigger and started to nap less I have found it increasingly difficult to squeeze in the time to write. At the end of a 12 hour day of constant childcare it can be challenging to log onto my computer and start trying to string my thoughts together into something that is valuable or useful or interesting for you to read.
If you have ever kept a blog yourself then you will appreciate that it takes 10 x longer than you might imagine to write and edit a post and organise all the photos. It also requires a lot of screen time which is something I’d really like to reduce in my life. But at the same time, I feel utterly torn because I love writing and being creative and learning new skills and I feel so honoured that you guys take time out of your day to read about my adventures. It’s amazing to me that you care about my family and what we get up to. So at the moment I am undecided about what I will do next but those are my current, very honest thoughts. And all I can think of now is that song “Should I stay or should I go…”