In amongst all the lovely presents for Jacob at my baby shower was another gift that had my name on it. My kind and very sensible friend had bought me a book called ‘Soul Food for Mums’, which she had read herself during the first year of her son’s life. It is a weekly devotional for mums as they navigate the intense, scary and wonderful new landscape of parenthood. I remember bringing Jacob home from the hospital, all of us exhausted and trying to figure out what we were doing, and my mum watched Jacob whilst I sank into a warm bath with this book. I found each page such a reassurance.
One of the things I had expected least in the early weeks was slightly odd nighttime hallucinations that my baby had fallen off the bed or got lost or wriggled under his blanket which left me frantically trying to ‘find’ my baby, only to discover that he was safely tucked in his Moses basket, just as I had placed him a couple of hours before. I knew it was ridiculous but it happened night after night until I read a beautiful reminder in the book about how such fears can be an opportunity to trust God. I couldn’t be awake and watch over my baby all the time but God could. Since then I have found that the book often offers up timely wisdom for the stage I am at in this journey of motherhood. I have realised that I am a much better mum when I also take care of myself and this book has really helped me to do that! A great pressie for mums-to-be. PS. Jacob now makes such a racket grunting and sneezing and stretching at night that I am left in no doubt that he is 100% ok. It’s just still not very conducive to getting good quality sleep!!